Time.

I was thinking about Kari tonight, reading through some of the wall posts on her page. You were such an awesome person my friend. I just wish we would have had a little longer with you. You are missed. We love you.

Your beginning and your end are not the things that end up being what matters. It's what happened everywhere in between that made and continue to makes you who you are. Your beginning can't define you because you had nothing to do with it. It just so happened that you were there and so, you were. Your end has just as little to do with who you are, it is often out of our control. It happens almost always outside of our realm of view, making us powerless to alter it. But it's what happened in between these two points in time that make up you. The good things you did, and the good things you didn't do. The decisions you made for yourself and for others. Even if you didn't realize you were making a decision when the most important ones were made. This is what makes you who you were my friend. So we thank you for how you lived and loved. Because you loved, oh you loved. And let's not forget to those who love, true life is given. Though, let's not trick ourselves, trials do come. But the rest of your history is made substantial by how you handle these moments. So thank you for being you, even if what was in between was short for you it was lived to the fullest. And that, my friend, is more than many can say in a hundred years.

"Everything has its own time, and there is a specific time for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to pull out what was planted." -Ecclesiastes 3:1-2

Autumn

Things aren't quite as they have always been. But I don't really think I need to point that out to anyone even if they don't know anything about me at all. This year has been weird but without it I don't think i'd have the faith that I have right now. It's amazing how such horrible events and sad times can bring about something so true and beautiful. Which goes to prove that nothing is impossible for God. Even though it feels like it to us sometimes.

Beauty is in this, though it looks like their is dying all around me. A spiritual autumn is what it appears to be. But the best thing about this season is all of the hidden joys you can find. Though the chills may come you still have the warm summer memories to look forward to. And even though you feel like giving up, winter is the only thing ahead; you forget that spring follows the winter. A birth of life unlike any other seen in all of creation. For out of this deadness and hurting I find new life. Out of the Autumn is set up a new seed that once it begins to grow cannot be destroyed. It can't be tempted by the old things, it's too good for that. For you have been brought into a place of happiness from your sorrow. And out of mourning you have found joy.

And he who was seated upon the throne said: "Behold I make all things new!" -Revelation 21:5

Don't Cry!

So I haven't posted on here in a while... My bad. I had switched over to Tumblr for a while but it seems all is on there is a bunch of stupid crap for the most part so I will probably start to post on here again. WOOO!! In Shakespeare class right now... bored and this computer is about to die so I should probably get off because I still have to check my gmail. So... peace!

From shadow and death I have fled

Out of pain and lonliness I have been found

Such amazing love that comforts me

To be found in grace and power!

For you alone make all things new and in you I am restored!

In you I find my will to go on!

Out of desperation came my salvation!

Candle

So there are few times that I am speechless in my life. But when I found out that one of my friends died, I did find myself at a stand still for words. All that would come out of me were tears. So this is for you my friend.

You bore your candle with dignity and a way that many are jealous of. Winds blew, let's not joke and say they didn't. But you knew how to handle the wind, and never did you put the bushel over your light. You let it burn bright for all to see around you. We wonder where and when our wick's end will come, but we never expect them to come at such a time as this. For such a short time your candle burned with a passion many beings never seem to experience in a life time of existing. For you didn't exist, you lived. Everyday was new and it was the promise of a new beginning, and you knew that. You carried your candle to the very end of the road, an unreasonably short road. So with heavy hearts we say goodbye to this bright light.

"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." -2 Timothy 4:7

Dedicated to Kari Wynn Denson 1991-2009

Christmas

Thinking about this Holiday season and all the feelings, thoughts and emotions that come and go with it. I don't know how to describe this day but I am going to try in the next few sentences.

Another Christmas has come and gone. Things don't seem too different than last year, but at the same time it feels like another world. Many worries have come and gone while others have been introduced, new and unknown. But on this day that just passed by I can't help but smile in spite of any clouds that loom around and about me. These clouds, all of these, just seem to fade away ever 25th of December. Where a broken family is made whole again, and hurting hearts are mended. It's the one day where it's ok to be as childish as you can be, no matter what your real age happens to be. A joy so unexplainable, untouchable, but ever present seems to soak this day through. Permeating it through and through. What's the cause of this happiness? One might stop to ponder this when thinking about this, most blessed of days. This is the result of a love that was more than love that brought a peace that no other has ever been able to measure up to. It's the day a baby came to earth, a God-King in his right but he gave it all up. So that we can see this, the glimpse of the Father's Heart.

Then the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which shall be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of a David a Saviour, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be the sign to you: You will find a Babe wrapped in swaddling cloths, lying in a manger." And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying: Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, goodwill toward men!" -Luke 2:10-14

Yahweh

So, I was listening to the song Yahweh by Hillsong today; or well sorta I was watching an exerpt from the Faith + Hope + Love CD/DVD. And the preacher was talking about what God's name means. I love how he said that in the bible God has over 270 names. That got me to thinking about how our names mean so much to us. Our name is what gives us our identity. Thus explaining why having one's identity "stolen" is such a big deal. But our God the one who made us can't even be summed up in one name or title; because if you were to sum him up in a word it wouldn't even come close to explaining who he really is. How is that for awesome? Besides, even if this wasn't even a point look at the meaning of his name(s). Like Jehovah Shalom, Prince of Peace! Jehovah Rophe, healer! His name(s) speak his love and mercy toward his creation. It shows his never failing love and how it has remained constant throughout the centuries, no matter what regimes have existed upon the earth. He is El Shaddai, God all sufficient. And I don't know about you but I need an all sufficient saviour, because I am weak and weary and life can get me down. But he is there from everlasting to everlasting. And when we need someone to lean on and to feel whole in he is Jehovah Nissi, the Lord our banner! And due to what he did some 2000 plus years ago he is Yeshua, our saviour. Who never grows tired or weary. That's the God that I serve.

"For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given; and the government shall be upon His shoulders. And his name shall be called: Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." -Isaiah 9:6